The Muck & Mire of Emotions

I get in these jags from time to time where I’m just fighting my circumstances. I’m tired of being disabled. Tired of hurting every. single. day. All. day. Tired of being limited. Tired. Tired of everything being so hard. Why can’t I…? Why did God…? You get the picture.

I know in my head that it’s thankfulness that can turn the tide. So I say the words. But it’s not really in my heart. Until it’s really in my heart, things won’t change.

So I have to ask the Lord to create it in me. To make it happen in me. To speak to how I’m feeling. To break through my mood and the habit of thought I’ve fallen into. More than just change my self-talk, but to put thankfulness truly in my heart.