Of Bullets and Back Burners

I haven’t been on much lately. Sometimes life catches up and you just have to leave things on the back burner for a while. Social media, blogging ..and even a home business have to be let sit at times.

When I was a young mom, the Lord taught me to just let go of all things I wanted for myself. It was just too much frustration to pursue me-things and kid/family things at the same time unless totally necessary. It just never worked. I’ve never been a successful multi-tasker. I had to be all in and focused on the one thing of my family. If not, I’d end up an uncaring shrew-wife and an angry, disgruntled, discontented mom all the time.?

I’d be distracted in both directions. From the thing I wanted to do for me or others, and also from my kiddos and husband. Just didn’t work.?

So, I bit the bullet. I died to myself and my wants. Let them go, gave them up and learned to trust God to take care of my me-needs. It was one of the wisest things I’ve ever done. And my Father was so faithful to teach me and provide for the me-things I actually needed. I learned to look to him and depend on him.

Now, please don’t get the idea that such a thing was a breeze and always easy. I’m too stubborn for it to have been that. Lol. This all was a point of growth and hard at times. But whenever there was a struggle in me over one or the other, the Lord did always manage to bring me back to the thought of giving up “me”.

Fast forward 20ish years. Though our children are grown now, I still find the same wisdom of laying down me-things at work in our home. It’s such faithful Light. Our daughter and her husband and 2 children were buying a new home and they were living with us for 6 months or so. It wasn’t long into it and I realized I had to return to the same give-up and lay-down mode. Bite the bullet once again.

It wasn’t quite as intense as when they were young, but putting many of the me-things on the back burner again was the most peaceful place to be in my own heart–there was no struggle there. Like social media, blogging, and home business.

So, that’s why you’ve not heard from me in a while.

My daughter and her family are now safely installed in their new home. We’re still getting our home back to the way it was, as they move their things slowly, but my expectation is a return focus on Jordan’s Crossing as that happens.

I’m kinda excited really. A little bit like starting over after a long season away. It’s going to be interesting to see what new and refreshing directions might surface.

So: I’m back… or getting there at least. Lol. ?

Hope y’all have been well. ??

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